Hell0 every0ne, i'm finally back with my bl0gging?.. (as if I have my f0ll0wers 0r readers ar0und, hehe) Well, I just th0ught 0f updating this 0ne since I am having s0me em0ti0nal difficulty right at this very m0ment and I think I'm g0ing t0 burst 0ut s0 I decided t0 let it 0ut in a healthy manner that w0n't hurt me and the pers0n inv0lved c0z, as always, I'm n0t g0nna name "names" as I am very private with my life... but naah, I just want t0 clear that this 0ne's unlike pr0blems that are affecting m0st y0uth 0f t0day since this isn't a stuff ab0ut l0ve 0r family.. since I have never been in LOVE on the first place 0r s0 I th0ught.. This 0ne has been b0thering me f0r 2 1/2 years I guess and this is ab0ut m0ney and friendship.. 0h, i kn0w s0me w0uld say this is silly and this is an0ther st0ry 0f a pers0n wh0 have 0nce again traded friendship f0r m0ney 0r is it?.. please guys (again, if there are indeed any0ne wh0'll read this), please d0n't judge me first unless u finally kn0w the real st0ry 0r maybe just my side 0f the st0ry..
You see I have a friend wh0m I met in c0llege and we are really cl0se despite 0ur c0untless differences.. N0rmally, I d0n't have friends wh0 are like her c0z my friends are m0stly th0se wh0 have a simple lifestyle as I have.. Her life is entangled t0 a l0t 0f c0mplicated web in it c0mpared t0 my b0ring life.. but I w0n't menti0n these c0mplexities c0z she might be a bl0gger as well wh0 may happen t0 read this and she might realize that this is her that I am menti0ning ab0ut but I'm 49% sure that she has n0 interest ab0ut bl0gging (s0 she isn't g0nna be y0u, right?).. This friend 0f mine is 0riginally a she and yet she likes dating girls. We've accepted her that way but we made it clear that she's n0t interested in any0ne 0f us as much as we d0n't want t0 be inv0lved in such an act alth0ugh we accept them as friends but that's it and period.. We have n0 pr0blem ab0ut her dating an0ther girl but 0ne time, because 0f 0ne 0f her girls, she asked us t0 lend her a certain big am0unt (n0t really big am0unt but f0r students like us and f0r s0me p00r family, it can be c0nsidered as big).. We weren't supp0se t0 lend her any but she t0ld us that that's the 0nly way t0 let her girlfriend attend sch00l since s0me0ne st0le her tuiti0n fee. S0 being a g00d friend, I lend her the am0unt.. Plus, I imagined my m0m 0n the same sh0e n0t that she als0 dates girls c0z we're n0t really int0 that but because she used t0 w0rk and study really hard at the same time just t0 have a g00d dipl0ma.. My friend als0 pr0mised me t0 pay me back after a few days.. but then, as many writers c0ined it, "days turned t0 weeks which turned t0 m0nths and ended up f0r years" and up t0 this very m0ment, this unlucky fell0w was still unpaid.. huhu.. She br0ke up with the girl I was really w0rried ab0ut my m0ney but a pr0mise is a pr0mise as I th0ught it was... but still pr0mised t0 pay me.. She m0ved t0 an0ther place but we still c0mmunicate thr0ught the net and she t0ld me that she f0und a j0b wh0's salary is en0ugh t0 pay me at least and that she will start paying me.. but lately, as I e-mailed her since I wasn't receiving anything yet, I received n0 reply fr0m her th0ugh I am certain that the acc0unt is still active everytime I check it.. I kn0w that m0ney must n0t be weighed with friendship.. but this isn't just ab0ut the tw0.. it's ab0ut trust, s0mething which is present between them..
S0 n0w, I am really praying that she's g0nna pay me really s00n c0z I really need the m0ney yet having n0 reply fr0m her makes things even w0rse f0r me c0z that can give me a l0t 0f hyp0theses which may be 0r I wish w0uld n0t turn 0ut as I th0ught..
I am n0t that narr0w-headed n0t t0 understand things.. If things are explained t0 me, I can get the p0int easily.. I really d0n't kn0w what t0 think at the m0ment.. things have been starting t0 p0p int0 my head which may make things even w0rse.. H0w I wish, I'd end up realizing that I had just misunderst00d her with these kinds 0f th0ught after letting her speak her mind ab0ut the situati0n..
But I have t0 stay p0sitive as always c0z I really h0pe she w0uld n0t put my trust t0 trash later 0n afterall, I have trust 0n 0ur friendship.. ㅜ_ㅜ
P.S. I've p0sted this as a f0rm 0f an 0utlet but at the same time, may I request f0r y0ur prayers.. please pray f0r 0ur friendship and f0r enlightenment f0r b0th 0f us as well... thank y0u..^^
