Just don't fit in...

Hay... I love DBSK so much... but I don't know why I feel like I just don't fit in those groups who support them... So sad but yeah... I've been trying hard to be like them but I think I just messed up... I'll just follow then what Changmin oppa said... I'll just study so that I'll be a better fan when I''ll get to meet them someday... huhuhu... I won't give up being a fan.. and yeah I'm a fan of TVXQ and don't have to please other fans like me...FIGHTING!!!

My strongest weakness... my faMiLy!!!

To be honest, I hardly cry... I may be lonely, sad or angry but I never cry because of those negative emotions... However, what is ironic about me is that I can not hold my tears once I start talking about my family... I must be a cry baby or could it be that I love my family so much...
My mom.... she's someone whom I could look up to when it comes to so many things... I believe that she's one of the nicest persons on earth. Well, that is because she's got a strong faith in GOD! I used to think that she was tough on me because when I was younger, she doesn't want me to be absent in school even if i feel really dizzy... But ironically, now that I can deal with these stuffs, she then kind of encourage me not to go to school if i think that I would not be fine in school... HAHAHAHappy mother's Day Mama!!! And like my daily routine, let me say... "I love you mama, MWUAHHH!!!"

-just Starting-

Wow... I've been reading some blogs. And I'm really amazed of how people relate their stories to other people. I kinda thought that maybe I could be like them someday... someone who can express myself really well with other people because so far, I can only recall that I have never been that open to anyone... Yeah... I have my friends... I do counseling most of the time but ironically, i can not find someone who could listen to me and yet won't dare to judge my own weaknesses. I love my friends but since I am the kind of person whom they could always turn to... I kinda felt that they always look at me as the tough person who is incapable of showing my real emotions. And as they see me that way, I unconsciously started acting like one. I later on realized that even if one is with the company of others, s/he can still feel so empty and alone....